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I am 26 and a single mom to a 7 year old daughter. I just recently got over a breakup with an ex boyfriend who was Armenian, I am not. I loved him so much but I ended up living with him before marriage and pretty soon culture and other stuff started to happen. We fought every day. We fought bad, almost every day. I tried so hard to please him. AT that time I was working full time(which I always have ever since she was born up until I was laid off 7 months ago). I would drop my daughter off at school at 8 pick her up at 6, come home, try and do dinner, and all this stuff but he was so demanding, would barely help out and wanted all my attention. I would say can we wait until my daughter goes to bed around 8 for adult time. Or after cooking I would ask for help cleaning. He wanted to have his beer and watch his sports. I was the woman and had my role. It was hard because I did everything. At the same time, he treated me like a princess the way he would touch my face with his hand, make love to me, open doors, and if he had money would take me out. At first I would like it when he controlled me or got jealous or told me I could not wear something or I had to listen to him. I thought it was macho in the beginning and was not used to a man caring, but eventually things just got tougher and more controlling. He used to make a lot of money as a realtor. We moved in and lived together for 1 1/2 years and for 1 year he was not making money which made him depressed and me too because I did loans and was not making money either. So financial reasons brought us to fight more, besides culture reasons. We eventually found ourselves bringing out the worst qualities in each other. I was not allowed to have male friends and agreed to that but decided to contact an old male friend(who he specically forbade me to see because he did not like how he looked at me) Who knows. Bottom line, Armenian men forbid their girls to have male partners. Anyway’s, I was getting tired of the drama and fighting and my boyfriend not answering his phone and him going out and completely forgetting about me. I would try to tell him how I felt and he would usually just yell at me and tell me that I need to worry about "my man," meaning him. IT was tough because I wanted to be supportive but also had my own feelings. So I went to my guy friends(and we are not even that close), but he is there I guess if I need him. I was asking how I could get my man back. Well, when my boyfriend tried calling I did not answer phone. He called like 10 times. Then he drove by, saw my car there and started yelling at me accusing me of sleeping with my friend. My daughter, him and I were supposed to go to Cancun 3 days after that and he cancelled on us. The next day he texted me over 40 times calling me a slut, hor, bitch, cunt and all of that. it was tragic. When I got back he wanted me back. We were together for 7 months after that and just kept fighting and broke it off. After our break up I contacted my friend again, the guy and said "your right, maybe it was too soon." Well, my ex went through my phone and saw that and says if there was a chance in future, there is none now and he wants nothing to do with me.
Right now I am losing my mind. I cannot sleep and feel very alone. I try to balance life but it is hard. I volunteer at my daughters school 20-30 hours a year, and I have her in multiple activities. Single parenting is hard and sometimes I hate it. There are so many sacrafices and her dad is not around. I cry a lot to myself. Sometimes I feel I might get cancer from stress. I moved into my parents 7 months ago and they are supportive but I wish I could do it on my own. I feel useless and my self esteem is low. I try to socialize with moms at her school and have playdates with them but I think people look at my weird. Or judge how I dress fashionably, or am younger. My daughter gets invited on playdates and I have them too but I get insecure with certain things, like why didn’t this one mom call me when they decided to take a kid out of town with their kid? Is it a reflection on my daughter or myself. I reek of low self esteem I think. Or I might come off as too strong. I don’t know. Either way, the thoughts in my head are spinning around like crazy. They practically torment me.
I try to be social myself. One or two times a week I might have a glass of wine by myself with my laptop before I pick up my daughter, just to avoid going home and because I get lonely. It’s not like I have my own kitchen to cook in anymore. I feel out of place and my daughter only has about an hour of homework so if I pick her up to early, she has nothing to do but watch TV. Like I said, I have her in activities like sports and art and book club. I just really need young time. Friends time. To feel like I’m hanging out and being normal time and not just doing the mom thing 24/7. I used to work full time, go to school and raise my daughter and decided to just recently sacrafice b

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